To Jordan (from mom)

I can't believe that another week has gone by already. Life here is crazy (as usual), but we're somehow making it through. I'm teaching my G4G classes again, and it's harder this time. I guess working a real job plus G4G is more than my poor brain is able to do well. I'm not happy to be stretching, but that is my reality.

I'm applying for a job at the HS. The SpEd folks are looking for aides. I don't know if it's more money, but it would be another step in my climb back to normality. I keep thinking that my head is going to burst and that the tears will come streaming any minute, but so far, so good. I only get teary when I write/read your letters. :)

I miss your music. I miss singing with you. I hope that you get to (at least) sing there. I still remember being so shocked when you sang at your (not-a-) farewell. You are so amazing. I'm so proud to have you as a son. Every time I hear the word, "FREEDOM" I think of you.

Please tell me that you're less bored. I worry about that alot. A thought/suggestion was given to me (for you) the other day: Think about more than the (Korean) words or the (Gospel) topics, but start to think about how to testify and teach in Korean. The language is one thing. The gospel is something different. Try to think about how you can study the language with the intention of using it to teach. I suppose it's called the "gift of tongues" for a reason. Be ready for the opportunities.

I finally read one of the John Green novels--Finding Alaska. It took me back to high school and all of the stupid, irresponsible things we did. I'm hoping that you weren't that reckless or foolish as I was, or as was portrayed in the book. Thanks for sharing, though. It reminded me that you had a life outside of the one you divulged to me. Your life and your experiences are yours. Please treasure surviving the close-calls and learn from the idiocy.

I love you, Jordan. Please always remember that. No matter what you do, or what happens, or what choices you make--I love you!